Personal Reflection

This talk and lecture about government, poverty, and money all make me feel extremely vulnerable. Its overwhelming, it makes me insecure and unsure of who people really are, if it wasn't for the money. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one but I don't feel so good about myself when we discuss this topic. Sometimes it gets me upset from everything I'm learning, I feel this anxiety inside me and want to walk out the classroom. The feeling of not being able to do anything about this corrupt government is very stressing and nerve wrecking, especially for some in the lower class. When I'm sitting in class, I'm thinking, "Any minute now, when the teacher ends his sentence, he's going to tell us the secret to survive against this government confinement we live in". But it never comes, so my hopes are crushed. Probably we have to find out on our own, even if some get it or don't. It makes me despise the upper class more when I find out how immoral they could be. Sometimes i feel like talking about all this is just to learn more about whats going on in the world, but I want to take action! This kind of corruption has been going on for decades and people clearly cant do anything about it. We're still going to be under federal law, we're still going to pay taxes, have low paying jobs and unemployment, there is still going to be extreme poverty and slaves and we're just still going to get fucked over at the end of the day either way! Unless you're in upper class, but the upper class wont even have this on their list of worries. It makes me scared and anxious of how the future is going to be, because now even the middle class could become the new poverty in just a blink of an eye. Like it just confuses me to the point of wanting to quit everything I'm doing. Obviously working for the government is never going to end. Or sometimes I think of moving to other countries where life could be better, where its more equal and less corrupted. Where I don't have to worry about the government being all jacked up and with the upper class and just being selfish or just doing things when it suits them. It all makes me feel like I cant trust the government. Even the police abuse their power to the extreme! Police are suppose to make you and the city feel safe by reducing endangered criminals, but sometimes they are the real criminals behind the scene. Why can't most things be equal, like whats the problem with everyone having benefits and survival things. We clearly have enough food and money to give to everyone, especially the ones who seriously need it. But the government doesn't care about the dying poor, they need an enemy, they need to be hated on and they need to be unfair for their plan to work all together. I think its pretty fucked up how the government just drains all its problems and the poor are the ones who have to suffer from it under the sewer. Meaning the government always wants to just push everything down or to the side and since the poor is in the lower class, they're almost invisible to ignorant people. Though the problems never go away they just keep piling up until another president gets elected and has to maybe find a way to cover it up or take the attention away from it. How do they even rank where the money goes to? "The money" obviously our tax money. I'm thinking its randomly picked out of a hat because the needy are clearly not first on the list. I think after all that I've learned, I'm convinced the U.S is just a fraud. If people really knew how things were here before they came from their countries, they probably would change their minds and just stay where they are at. Some people believe slavery, discrimination and racism is over, but it never even got close to being over. Its always going to be here no matter what, in the black shadows and  in between the lines.